Here I Stand

Here I stand, look at me

Just a normal dude, with a normal life, having a past of considering myself special with a special calling to fulfil a special mission. What a boy, still to become a man, though trapped in a labyrinth of vanity and lacking charity I so desperately seek in having sense of purpose. Life is tense with no proper chance, so would you mind listening a bit for this thing I try to teach may hit, I learned.

I won’t rip you off, but encourage you to walk the walk and live your talk. Now back down and slack away from empty pleasures, measures of egoistic leisure’s that you are trapped in, still watching others glory over your ability to construct a unique personal story. Horror fills me when I think about what’s coming, feeling helpless to abide in peace while society is getting down on its knees to please, don’t freeze while trying to get up for life’s a mother of lies if you don’t believe and make yourself loose of all ties.

Nobody knows your mind so keep it strict to watch till you catch and conceive a vision for the helpless who have less than is in your wallet, a mess to call it. why are you so puffed up doing nothing but peculiar boring heart whoring. You want to shine your puffed up brain in vain? All you get is another chain, praises of men like rain on scarlet blazers of those who are nothing than foolish money chasers; drop it, leave it, don’t sit but run from the pit, you’ll have to be sober and enter this Red October, dive deeper when the hill’s you climb so wounded get steeper.

You’ll be betrayed like we all, we fall, are small, strayed from home roaming the globe of illustrative fantasies and hidden though frail mysteries, fool- watch the bees; work hard, don’t play the joker as a wild card. Forget what’s behind ‘coz you’re blind, helpless and weak, well that’s how you tend to speak. Am I right? Aren’t you running from the fight, so far from Gods sight? Conscience won’t play tricks nor will you find any comfort with all those chicks, pricks; men deceive and leave so focus and don’t rely on hocus pocus, for your wounds bleed- take heed.

Producing your dream on the mainstream while eternal duties scream, what’s your answer? Sink and think about to hinder the one who’s pulling you down downtown. Secrets of purpose lay behind all the wicked fuss, deep down the valley of humility, denial of me, myself and I; so why to waste time and be shy? be bold, strong and hold on to all that’s opposing wrong consolation, vain relation to empty opinions of people’s frustration.

Don’t you already know that this is all but a big soap show and you’re trying to sit closer, mister composer, try rather to disclose her who tempts and does adulterous work in careful attempts to deceive and leave the future child in its hopeless fatherless grief.

Can I offer a meek solution to escape all this worldly pollution? Believe, see and hear the goodness of all who fear the one that looks down your heart to make you free indeed, guaranteed that when you enter secret isolation eternal consolation will ripen your brave core and without sore He’ll even bless you with more to eventually load into the cloud, melodies to sing out loud, while you’re being purified of all wrongs you shamefully concealed in words breathed through iron lungs.

Originality will find you through hardship, character formed by achieving victory, relieving; while standing your place with all those who’re believing- this mysterious and glorious chase of truth is in prevailing through righteous wailing, stirs you alive to move on and hold fast till He comes at last.


Strategies for spiritual boredom.

The following is a blog entry posted on 43:10.

Recently, I felt bored and stressed.  Nothing extraordinary you might say, but I was bored and stressed in conversation with God.  Talking with God; the almighty, the creator of the universe, the all-glorious and all-beautiful one; I was bored and stressed.

To me, one of the most convincing arguments for the reality of an accessible God is His intervention in human consciousness through prayer.  Famously, agricultural scientist George Washington Carver (1864-1943) asked God for ‘the mystery of a peanut’, and subsequently derived over 300 different patents from this unassuming beer accompaniment.  Prayer is very real.  At the centre of my faith is a God who is limitlessly powerful and consistently unpredictable, whose words and ideas are thrilling to the human spirit. To me, spiritual boredom is unacceptable; it is obtuse, unbelieving and even stupid.  And yet, there I was.

In the midst of this place of boredom and stress, God spoke to me like He sometimes does, by showing me an image in my mind’s eye.  I saw myself like a little child kneeling over something I was holding in my hands and I was clearly frustrated by it, like it was a toy I was trying to fix, and I saw my Father standing over me wanting to help me but He couldn’t seem to get my attention while I was so engrossed in my own task.  I realised that the object I was holding in my hands was prayer itself.  God was showing me that I was trying to do prayer with my own agenda and my own understanding of what the results should be.  My eyes were fixed down when they should have been looking up to my Father. I had missed the vision of heaven. God wanted to talk to me about cities and nations while I was fixated with a comparatively petty prayer list of practical concerns for the following weeks and months.

Much of the Christian Church is in this position.  ‘Strategy’, ‘model’ and ‘agenda’ have become Christian buzzwords that make us feel professional, but increasingly seem to betray a heart that is departing from the Lord.  We have become very good at ideas, but I’m not sure how much we are truly growing in the heart of God.  Jesus said it would be those who ‘abide’ in Him who would bear much fruit.  But are our goals His goals, and is our vision His vision?  Are they even becoming more united?  Too often it seems that the goals of Christian organizations and churches are about increasing ‘web hits’ and ‘likes’ on a facebook page, rather than the transformation of culture by the Word of God; the salvation of souls and renewing of minds.  The calling of a Christian was never to be ‘liked’.  We are called into fellowship with Jesus (1 Corinthians 1:9)

While we are counting how many likes, shares and comments were achieved on our social media feeds in the last week, and how many heads there were in our Sunday services, 37.5 million babies were aborted globally so far in the past year alone.  There are 36 million trafficked in an exploding global slave trade. The number of displaced persons has reached around 60 million.  The USA, still the world’s most prominent ‘Christian nation’, ranks among the the top ten ‘most divorced’ nations with a rate of 53% of marriages (the UK is not far behind with 47%, and 6 of the other top ten nations are from western Europe).  Over 200 million Christians around the world are denied fundamental human rights because of their faith according to the World Evangelical Alliance, and 322 Christians are killed for their faith every month (Open Doors).  Israel, God’s chosen nation through whom He communicated all of the scripture and whom He has restored to their land as promised repeatedly in the Prophets, is reviled and mocked globally and is condemned by the UNHRC more times than all other nations combined including North Korea, Saudi Arabia, Burma, Libya, Syria etc… etc…  According to Psalm 149, God’s people are called to ‘execute judgement’ in the place of prayer and praise.  Matthew 18:18 says that we are given authority in prayer to bind everything that disagrees with heaven.  In Luke 18:6-8, Jesus promises that God will ‘speedily’ answer those who cry out to Him for justice.

So seriously, there are bigger fish to fry.

When Jesus, the commander of heaven’s armies, met Joshua on the plain of Jericho, He did not come to hear Joshua’s plan to conquer the city.  He came to give Joshua His strategy for victory.

And it came to pass, when Joshua was by Jericho, that he lifted his eyes and looked, and behold, a Man stood opposite him with His sword drawn in His hand. And Joshua went to Him and said to Him, “Are You for us or for our adversaries?” So He said, “No, but as Commander of the army of the Lord I have now come.” (Joshua 5:13-14, NKJV)

Jesus’ strategy was bizarre.  He says to Joshua (paraphrase…), ‘I want you to walk round Jericho once every day for six days, then the next day I want you to walk around it 7 times and afterwards get the priests to blow trumpets.’  Jesus’ plan sounds crazy, but obedience in fellowship with Him releases supernatural power to break down the strongholds of the enemy.  The walls of Jericho fell down flat.

It is much easier for us to create comfortable human strategies than to walk in fellowship with Jesus, but it is so much more boring and exhausting.  If Joshua had been offended by Jesus’ strategy for victory, the alternative would probably have been a very protracted and potentially costly process of siege warfare.  God had a miraculous solution available, if Joshua was willing to walk in fellowship with Him.  God doesn’t want us to go through the pain of our own plans and strategies!  He wants to release miraculous solutions to us in our jobs, relationships and in building His kingdom but these strategies will never come from human intelligence and are often offensive. [Emphasis by editor]

In a very similar instruction, but a very different need, in 2 Kings 5 God asked Naaman the Syrian through the prophet Elisha to wash in the Jordan river 7 times for his healing.  Naaman became offended at God’s plan.  He didn’t want to wash in an Israeli river.  He thought that the Syrian rivers should be good enough for him.  But that wasn’t what God said, and he wouldn’t have been healed if he had washed in a Syrian river.

God already has a strategy for global revival at which a large proportion of the body of Christ are offended because it involves the nation of Israel, and politics has clouded a lot of vision on the subject.  Like Naaman, they do not accept Israel’s strategic place in God’s purposes, even though His Word is absolutely clear.  Romans 11:11 states that a core purpose of the gospel coming to the gentiles was in order to provoke Israel to jealousy for their own Messiah.  A remarkable statement and an element of God’s global purpose that is completely ignored by large sections of the Body of Christ, and sidelined by others.

There are now endless ‘mission strategies’ available in Christian media.  There are new methods of outreach produced on seemingly a daily basis and yet God says He wants to bring ‘life from the dead’ for the whole world (or global revival) through the Israel’s acceptance of their own Messiah (Romans 11:15).  God’s response to the cry of His Church for global revival is Isaiah 62:

I have set watchmen on your walls, O Jerusalem;
They shall never hold their peace day or night.
You who make mention of the Lord, do not keep silent,
And give Him no rest till He establishes
And till He makes Jerusalem a praise in the earth. (Isaiah 62:6-7, NKJV)

God is calling out for watchmen who will embrace His purposes for the world, and agree with His agenda and His strategy.  He is looking for men and women who will lay down their lives in the place of prayer and allow Him to move through their lives in remarkable and supernatural ways.  He longs to find men and women who will embrace His heart for the nations, no matter how offensive it is to them personally.  He longs for those who will let His priorities become theirs, so much so that they become the burning cry of their hearts, day and night.

It is a mystery, and it looks like foolishness, but God has chosen to release healing to the world through an Israeli river!  God is going to set up His throne in Jerusalem and a river is going to flow out from His throne that will turn bitter waters into sweet.  Trees will grow on the banks of that river that will be for the ‘healing of the nations’ (Revelation 22:2).  Israel is not the only element in God’s plan for global revival, but it is a central element in His ultimate divine solution and the Church will witness a supernatural revival in its prayer life and a dramatic increase in fruitfulness when it embraces its role in intercession over Jerusalem and Israel.

As you read this, I pray that a fire might be kindled in your heart to let God draw you into an encounter with the Commander of the heaven’s armies, and that you might find divine strategies for your life and for nations as you walk in fellowship with Him.


Be the constant stream of solution

“Favor is transferred through proximity.” – Lance Wallnau
Compare with: “If they receive you, they receive me” – Jesus Christ

A single point of contact, like the shaking of hands can already open an atmosphere where divine solution can be inspired. Working on your conscious acknowledgement of provision in every situation, will in the first place give you peace and also make you pass on any favor that follows you.

Worrying will trouble your spirit and will subject you to any proclamation made in unfamiliar gatherings. The less you worry, the more you reign and add to the divine provision of excellent work-out of any problem, all through sudden inspiration.

So wherever you go with Christ, things are fixed and ideas flow, just by your presence. Calibrate your heart on the Spirit of God and give (emotional, intellectual and spiritual) reason to this focus so that your feelings, thoughts and wills are submissive to this stream of love.

Alison Quairoli of Flemington, Brady Niederer of Lamberville, George Agalias of Hopewell, Barry Abramowitz of Lawrenceville, Jan Baldwin of Pennington, Vanessa Oates of Hopewell and N. Charles Leeder of Ewing.

A quick note: Who is Jesus?

Recently I had a dream in which I saw another young man, that I discipled years ago. He had come to the Lord in a very pure way and was a passionate follower of Jesus. In the dream he represented the current generation of young christians. He said very proud that he was able to transport himself in the spirit to Paris. I asked him who Jesus was for him at this moment. He answered:

‘Jesus is the representation of the fourth dimension. Thanks to Jesus we can now enter the supernatural!’

I told him Jesus is first of all the Son of God who came to die as the Lamb of God for our sins. The moment I said this, the young man lost his ability to transport himself to Paris.

God gave me this dream, to show me another danger of the current generation. Some don’t hear the message of turning from sin, and think Jesus is just the door to supernatural experiences and other cool stuff. But that is not what it’s about. As the Holy Spirit told me:

‘Go to the core of the matter…’ The heart of the problem of mankind is… sin. Sin separates us from God.

‘Everyone has sinned and is far away from God’s saving presence. But by the free gift of God’s grace all are put right with him through Christ Jesus, who sets them free.’ (Romans 3:23)

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Giving your broken life to God

Becoming born again is a term that is widely used in the world of christianity. What Jesus said in the book of John is the reason why this principle is often used to describe the main event in a believer’s life.

Jesus answered and said unto him, Verily, verily, I say unto thee, Except a man be born again, he cannot see the kingdom of God. – John 3:3

In this passage there are two terms used that have been discussed for centuries. The Kingdom of God and the principle of being born again have everything to do with the mystery of Christ in you, the hope of glory along with the main message that we proclaim:

This then is the message which we have heard of him, and declare unto you, that God is light, and in him is no darkness at all. – 1 John 1:5 whom God would make known what is the riches of the glory of this mystery among the Gentiles; which is Christ in you, the hope of glory: – Colossians 1:27

While I was hitchhiking back to my home in the Netherlands I got picked up by a Dutch truck driver. He was a very gentle man and he was quite open for what I had to share with him about God. He honoured me with a listening ear for about one and a half hour. He had been going to a Dutch reformed church for over five years and it really made him loose his faith. I thank God that I was  brought  into his life in order to share some of the true gospel of peace. What is, in fact, good news.

While telling this man about the mystery of being ‘saved’ I realized that there is a very distinct place in our life where we can actually realize if we really are saved. It is sometimes hard for me to understand how people who do not have the Holy Spirit, struggle to see and experience God. In the following couple paragraphs I will try to explain what dawned on me while sharing the gospel with this truck driver. Here it comes:

While many cultures have all kinds of ways to ‘please God’ the only way we can truly please Him is by giving Him all that we are, so that He will be able to form us into whatever He likes. But in order for us to give ourselves over, we need to have a deep assurance that we are completely safe in His hands.

Imagine being harshly condemned after opening your heart to somebody! Imagine that you are being put into a place where you will be, as to say, turned ‘inside out’. This will surely lead to severe fear, because you’re not as perfect as you actually think you are. You are broken and hopeless, but afraid to face it because even your own heart does not accept yourself as you now are.

This is evident in every human being. There is no exception. We all need somebody to work on us and give us a pure assurance of forgiveness. This will make us actually free to face ourselves with the confidence that whatever imperfection we find in ourselves is in fact ‘work in progress’.

Actually, now we know that there is somebody who can deal with it and make it ‘glorious’, or: ‘having eternal quality’, because He has been through all of this himself.

If you have read the above, you can understand now what it means to know ‘Christ in you, the hope of glory’. This knowledge actually gives you the complete freedom to stand in a place of light, where you really can be turned inside out without being ashamed. To make it more clear, think about this: If you want to really know if somebody is trustworthy, and see if he does what he says, won’t you first give him a little bit of what is yours to see what he does with it? Now imagine that person making what you give to him into something that is perfect, won’t you give more and more of what is yours to him, knowing increasingly that whatever that person does you can’t copy?

This, in fact, is the message of God being light, having no darkness in Him at all. When you give your broken life into His hands, He will start to work on it and bring that to perfection. While He fixing your life, you will see and experience deeply, how mighty and loving He truly is. This is what Jesus meant with ‘seeing the Kingdom of God’.

To experience the Kingdom of God, and to really know God as He is, you will have to give Him your broken life. Only after you did so, your understanding about Him will be enlightened and you’ll get a personal testimony of His special work in your life. I hope you also understand that doing merely ‘good deeds’ will never ever, get you to know who God truly is. That is what secular religion tries to teach us, but it simply won’t work! In order to do ‘good’ you first have to get to know the one that is truly good. This goodness is only fathomable by letting Him enter into the deepest areas of your precious life. From there on, you’ll do His goodness that is revealed in you. – this is truly GOOD!

By knowing, believing, and doing the words of Jesus, we now can know for sure that our Creator is still a loving God who accepts us as we are, having the ability to solve everything we can’t solve by ourselves and afterwards even having the capability to lift us up to rule with Him. This he proved by dying on the cross, not only to us but also to every other power that misuses our broken hearts. Let’s begin to surrender our lives more and more to this wonderful Lord we have. Let’s start a new life that is rooted in His work and not in our own goodness. Let’s be truly born again.

Work on your Vineyard

While reading the book of Watchman Nee called ‘the Song of Songs’, I stumbled upon a very interesting passage in which I think that a lot of (young) believers would find comfort. Here it comes:

Let us get up early to the vineyards (Song of Songs 7:12a)

“..Here she draws attention not to her own personal vineyard but to a plurality of vineyards beyond herself. Her concern and burden are now extended to many works of the Lord. In the beginning of any service for the Lord, believers must learn not to yield to the temptation of working in too many vineyards, but, rather, to cultivate one’s own vineyard. Remember the loved maiden’s lament in her own immaturity: “They made me the keeper of the vineyards; but my own vineyard I have not kept” (1:16).”

“But now she has been brought to spiritual maturity through caring for, and giving attention to, the development of the ground in her own life.”

Valley of Comfort

Once I heard Him speak so clearly
a voice of tender spoken whisper
for my stance never to flee.

Not since I met that shiny pearl
as if He burned for me a treasure,
but now stunned in the painful whirl
of losing her precious measure.

He still will teach me more of His
taking my heart through darkened paths,
by comforting with a tender kiss
all the burning scars of sharpened darts.

I will press through this empty season
and surely once again
flourish in a healthy reason
to never stop where I began.

Some spiritual principles

There are times when I’m being conscious of certain spiritual truths. Last time I sat down in order to write an article, I could not and was more guided into writing down simple principles that in my opinion can help you to tune into trust of God. I’ve not brought any scripture with them so if you think that a couple of them are not complete or even completely wrong, please let me know! I would love to talk about it, so that both of us can grow into a broader understanding.

  • When you stop working, and start resting, you will see how the Father is moving in your life.
  • Keep yourself in His love and He will reward you with prosperity and honour in a wisdom that is not known to the world.
  • He knows exactly where you go through, every situation in your life that requires higher commitment to Him is found in experiencing unfamiliar realms of foolish apprehension.
  • As disciples and people who are filled with Gods glory, we are used to our state of being and quickly forget the influence we have. This is also to prevent us from elevating ourselves above His name.
  • People who come into your life are set on a certain emotional state when they commune with you, it is important for you to keep yourself in the love of the Father.
  • To pray is to change. It is a proof of character, it builds you up. Your life is never the same after a minute of prayer. It is getting out of the circle of life; it is reflection and commitment, a drawing closer to the One who is All in all. It will bring Gods glory into your life, because He will come and eat with you. Both of you are enjoying communion together and enjoying life as it is meant to be.
  • Act seemingly reckless, and when there is danger your senses shall react and you will change your direction if your action is for God’s glory and into His direction.
  • Your heart can only grow rightly in an atmosphere of peace, for fulfilled desire is a tree of life. Peace brings satisfaction and that brings thankfulness.
  • When a seed is planted and given water by men it is nourished by God who gives growth.
  • Superficial commitment cannot help you to get rid of your fears.
  • Intuition makes use of your vision.

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More principles:

  • All of you heart’s desires are fulfilled in Jesus.
  • It is impossible for two people who are earnestly seeking God to miss their mark when God draws both of them together.
  • Every part you give God in His hands will fall under His control; your perseverance is a proof of the faithful commitment that you trust His work in you. This work is known as revealing the weakness in you and the apprehension of His greatness in Christ.
  • Attention is made pure and consecrated when there is suffering and a change of focus.
  • Without faith it is impossible to please God, those who move in situations of risk, have to believe that God is there to help and sustain them, instead of trusting their own ability and wisdom.
  • Letting go, the principle of forgiveness, is a sign of your trust in Him.
  • A steady and pure conscience allows you to make mistakes and approves your improvements, yet bugs you when something is not right.


Faith principle: Preparation and Provisioning

“Blessed are the pure in heart, for they will see God.” – Jesus Christ

The church service had ended and I was helping some people with putting away the music components back into the storage room. After we were done I went to get some water, and when I came to the bar the water can was empty. So I took it and filled it again, went back to the bar to put it back and at the same time the pastor came to get some water also.  Then suddenly it dawned on me, that this was a very important principle of faith, what many just call coincidence. 

In my opinion coincidence is just a label somebody puts on an event of which he doesn’t know or understand why it occurs. My thoughts needed an explanation, and this came to mind: “The pure[1] desire[2] [of a pure heart] invokes holy wanting[3] in related hearts.” this is the reason I wrote this little article.

We all know that some of our days will seem as if they are just perfectly designed to annoy us to death. I mean those days wherein everything you want to do, is resulting in an huge mess around you or just fails completely. It seems as if you are a couple seconds later than the rest of the world, that you fall behind and miss the goal. – Sounds familiar right? I think this is very real, and we have to learn to know how to act in those evil days, so that we won’t lose our temper and even do more damage than was necessary.

In my opinion we can only have peace and rest if we are sure that we are balanced and back-up by positive coincidence. That when we take a step into this chaotic world, somehow everything will coincide[4] with our actions, and not work against it. It’s a shame to know that many people will not agree that for everything that happens, there certainly is a reason. Those who trust in science must understand this, because it’s the simple rule of causality[5]. Just because we do not know the cause of everything, we came up with ‘coincidence’ in order to compromise with our ignorance and continue trusting the force which is behind the happening. You know, it even goes farther than this. It’s as if one denies universal responsibility , and adjusts to a reality which lacks big dog pieces of significance. Think about this, and if you agree please continue with me.

In my opinion coincidence is just a label somebody puts on an event of which he doesn’t know or understand why it occurs.

We know that we are certainly not the center of the universe, and effect the environment around us through our choices. This makes us responsible, thereby it proves our right to impact reality in a way we want to. And we know that our choices are based on where we are convinced about, let’s call this inner conviction our heart, our control center. Imagine now that you are convinced that it is okay to use perverse language, because your friends thought it was cool. Then on one occasion, you meet a group of people who have a very important position in the world, who bear huge responsibility and have many influential friends. You start to talk with them, and somehow you start to realize that they are not very interested in you, even ignoring you and trying to avoid talking to you. Then one of them asks to speak to you in private, and explains that the way you talk is definitely not acceptable.

Now the next time you talk with one of those important people, you will doubt about your ability of using the proper language, and this will make you uncertain and not confident because for your whole life, you thought it was okay to talk as you did. This realization caused doubt in your heart, in your control center (“Can I still have trust in who I am?” “Is it okay to talk as I usually do?”). It comes with the feeling as if somebody pulled a rug from underneath you, your fundamental convictions have been shaken.

But, we are not talking about language problems in this article. Our hearts is where I want to set our focus on, let’s get to understand what they really are. I personally like to define our heart  as the bridge for our spirits to influence our mind. As the base for our habits, the soil where the roots of our convictions grow. This is what makes every person a unique creature, because it’s the place where our most deep desires are, which are not copied from other people. Instead of that, every one of those deep and secret desires are uniquely formed by your soul corresponding with the source of its existence. This may seem as a bit vague explanation, especially when I use the word ‘soul’ in my description. The soul is defined as a ‘person’s [not physical] moral or emotional nature or sense of identity.’[6] It’s as if the corresponding of your soul with the source of its existence (or God) leaves an imprint in the heart to somehow, create a foundation for the mind to function upon. This, ladies and gentlemen, is also known as the effect of prayer.

So what is meant by having ‘a pure heart’? According to where we I’m going in this piece, it’s having inside of you, an imprint of a proper communion with the Source. This imprint makes my mind function in a unique way, not in the way the outside world wants me to function. This will make me an unique character, a person who really is alive.woman-at-well

He prepares your path, His grace provides to steadfast faith.

Having a pure heart is giving the desires of the Source you are communing with, free access to your life and being. It is a heart that is open for God to move through and manifest in the flesh, in our body and physical nature. Who is the one who has a pure heart, O who will see God?

How this connects with Preparation[7] is not hard to understand now, because having this pure condition of heart will give God who is the Source of our life, a free permission to affect our lives on any moment He wants, and in every way He wants to. It’s giving Him the keys of our house.

To understand the Provisioning principle, we must first know that God is wise. If He does His work in us, it’s not hard to understand that He will also prepare His work in order to perform it perfectly. Our part is the preparation of our hearts and then God will manifest Himself in and through us, He will make our mind and brain cohesive with His work in the world. And this work is now finished, fully supplied, and made available for us in the life of Jesus Christ.

“For this reason I am telling you, whatever you ask for in prayer, believe (trust and be confident) that it is granted to you, and you will [get it].” – Jesus Christ

Yuliy Valenko; March 2014

[1] ‘freedom from adulteration or contamination.’
‘freedom from immorality, especially of a sexual nature.’

[2] ‘a strong feeling of wanting to have something or wishing for something to happen.’

[3] ‘lacking in a required or necessary quality.’

[4] ‘correspond in nature; tally.’

[5] ‘the relationship between cause and effect.’
‘the principle that everything has a cause.’

[6] Google dictionary, emphasis added by me.

[7] I’ve written this word upper case, because in this context it’s a divine work done in you.

Pulling down: Stronghold of Depression

In this age, many are stricken by diverse kind of spiritual oppressions. Our Christian world is under heavy siege, almost every child of God who is on the divine mission for the Lord has to do with a fierce spiritual battle. One of those things that is really destroying many Godly men, is depression. In my experience, all those that I’ve met have to do with this spirit in a way, some of them big time. 

I’ve also been under this for a while now, and since some time, I’m free and God gives me clear view on this nasty state of being. Truly, it is not Gods will for us, Christians, to be under oppression by this spirit. In this article I will do my best to explain how depression enters into our lives, what it does to us, and most of all: How to get rid of it.

Depression comes in waves. Ifig-treet needs time to develop, and it’s being grown through reasoning. There is no hope in depression, and it’s caused by and leads to short-sightedness [CP 2 Peter 1:8-9]. We are responsible for our depression, we are the ones who give ground to this force on which it is allowed to sow havoc in our minds, this means that we can also get rid of it by confronting whatever it sows in our minds. It is very important to know that depression is like a seed, that is often sown on a soil of loneliness.

  • Depression: severe, typically prolonged, feelings of despondency and dejection.
  • Dejection: a sad and depressed state; low spirits.
    Source: Google dictionary

Let’s pick on the loneliness part: Many Christians are afraid of entering the realm of loneliness, but I have good news: it is more than a blessing to be in this state. First of all I want you to think of this, that without fear it’s impossible to have courage. In this same sense, it’s not possible to have a deep and intimate relationship with God without sowing seeds of life (thoughts and words of peace, joy and righteousness) on this fruitful soil of loneliness. Why this state is fruitful? Because it is exactly the time when you are deeply vulnerable, not being secure on a personal level, it’s when you start to recognize that you are not complete on your own. The devil knows this, and he will try to snatch you away by sowing lies into this state, these can be words that people speak, or memory’s which are triggered out from your past remembrance. How both seeds grow, is by the reasoning process that goes on in your mind continually. In most cases, we are not even fully conscious of this reasoning. – I hope you’re still following me!

While in this state of deep vulnerability, on a quite intimate level in our hearts, we are highly blessed because of the knowledge of Jesus Christ being with us, the Hope of Glory! This is exactly the time when through prayer we experience a most intimate communication with the Father. This is exactly the time to reflect ourselves in the precious Word of God. I hope that this excerpt from a psalm can give you more light on this:

Why are you cast down, O my soul,
and why are you in turmoil within me?
Hope in God; for I shall again praise him,
my salvation and my God.

As you read, the psalmist is remembering God while his soul is down. In whatever condition you are, in what darkness you abide, even the most hopeless moments in your life, you may know that this state really is just temporal, and that God is there next to you to provide you with the Hope of eternal Glory, to provide you with His peace and presence (did somebody say ‘Immanuel?’).

The reason you feel so bad after having a sense of loneliness, is because your apprehension on reality is a bit darkened, this can be because of many reasons: Your body may have been hurt; you maybe ate too much or just the wrong thing; maybe you have had a wonderful time with people who do not believe God, without discussing about God with them; or you had some time with believers, but did not acknowledge the Lord in the fellowship. Just to name a few – So in all these things, just head back to remembering God, and rejoicing in Him by bringing up every good thing He gave you in Christ.

So now we’ve seen what loneliness is, let’s head back to depression. From this place of understanding, we may conclude that depression is a tree, grown from a single seed, on the soil of loneliness. In this illustration, the tree is the result of a time of negative concluded reasoning. Let me explain.

Reasoning happens when your heart has the possibility and opportunity to settle with a certain way of thinking. This comes after you make a compromise with a thought you have about a matter, in this case, yourself. Every thought you’ve got, is part of a larger system of thinking, and that system of thinking also has important sources of which it gets power to reside in you. [CP Proverbs 23:7] These sources we call: alternate realities (or identities), but let’s stick with just naming them lies. Yes, it’s very simple, you believe a lie – and you conclude all what you think on that lie. The whole thing about a lie is this: someone’s behind it! Now just draw the connection.

The way out of this is the following: we have to chop down that tree. In order to do that we will need to take up an axe, and have the strength to chop into it. There is a problem with this though! The problem is that the tree will simply grow back again or it can be that the tree is way too thick to chop down. So how do we deal with this to really get rid of the tree for once and for all?

The answer is to curse the tree!

And Jesus spoke and said unto it [the fruitless fig tree], “Let no man eat fruit of thee hereafter for ever.” And His disciples heard it. (…) And in the morning as they passed by, they saw the fig tree dried up from the roots. And Peter, calling to remembrance, said unto Him, “Master, behold, the fig tree which Thou cursed is withered away.

You see what happens when you curse the tree? It becomes “dried up from the roots”! I think you get the point now, but it is worth to mention that the tree did not look like it was dead after Jesus cursed it. So even after confronting your depression with words that are grounded in the Word of God, words of hope, you still may have depressive thoughts! When you let those thoughts settle, you start to give the tree the right to grow again, especially when you speak the thoughts – as if you believe them.

We who are in Christ, can rely on the name of Jesus, the Word of God which is the truth. When we speak words against the depression trees in our minds, our words are based on the identity of Jesus Christ in us. This is what gives power to our words which we speak against these poisonous trees.

And when you get rid of the tree of depression, use your moments of loneliness to water the good and holy tree of life in you. Do this by nourishing it with words of life, and watering it with the Word of truth (Scripture). The tree of life in you, is a picture of the mind of Christ, an intimate knowledge of the One who is always with and in you. content with what you have, for he has said, “I will never leave you nor forsake you.”

Hebrews 13:5b